Day 17/365: 1. I almost cried in front of my kids today. I almost ran to every single one of them and gave each of them a huge hug and told them everything will be okay. There is no wonder that there is a rise in anxiety diagnosis for those in the elementary and middle level students. They are constantly told that they have to be the best of the best and they have to be perfect and they fight themselves and the tears and pain in order to make this happen to prove to other people that they are amazing or perfect. THIS IS NOT RIGHT AND NOT OKAY. No one is perfect. No one can be perfect. To quote @edmylett “I will always be in a midlife crisis because I am FOREVER evolving and growing and learning.” And yes, some might say that everyone is perfect in their own special way but when we add perfect to our vocabulary associated with people and personality, it develops that negative connotation. Lets commit to helping our young ones and even older ones understand that THEY ARE ON THIS EARTH TO BE LOVED, TO BE CHERISHED, AND TO LEARN, GROW, AND DEVELOP TO BE THE BEST VERSION OF THEMSELVES. 2. Because I am partially sleep deprived and because I let my heart be so open today, I am have been asking myself ALL the hard questions. I want to know why I am doing the work I am? And I know that may sound like stupid or cliche but sometimes I feel like I started a whole hype and it’s no longer there. Like I develop these projects and then I don’t want to do them after a while. I think that it’s just been a really hard week and so I am exhausted because honestly, I am not even excited about any of my dreams anymore. None of it. Don’t want to do any of it. And the thoughts go away but why do they come back? Why do I question whether I am doing the podcast for myself or to please others. Why do I question if I even like to get up early? Why do I question all of it? Is it just from exhaustion? I seriously am going to wake up tomorrow and feel a whole lot better (especially if we have a 2 hour delay). But the questions will come back. So if you read through all of this I thank you and please comment some words of encouragement and comment if you have ever experienced this too.