Dear 20-something me,
I want you to know that at some point, you will unravel completely and irrevocably. You will come undone and will not know what hit you. You will unlearn. You will lose faith. But that is the best thing that will happen to you. It will make you stronger. It will make you a believer.
I want you to know that you, who is probably the happiest and most positive person there is, will turn into a mean, unhappy, difficult person who cannot understand what is happening to her. You will become the worst version of yourself, and you will hate yourself for it. You will stop looking in the mirror even because you can't recognize who that ghost staring back at you is. You will distance yourself from everyone who loves you because you don't want them to see and shun this disgusting human being.
I want you to know that you will, at some point, want to end it all because it is the easiest way out. But you won't take the easy way out, that's not who you are. You will find your light at the end of the tunnel, and you will get there eventually. It's your journey, you get to decide how long you will take.
I want you to know that you have it in you to be a kind, generous, empathetic soul. It's in there, somewhere. You may stop believing it for a while, but that's only because you allowed other people's view of you to take precedence.
I want you to know that there will come a time in your life where you are no longer ashamed of who you are and what you want, and most importantly, what you DON'T want. You will make peace with your choices and fucking own it.
I want you to know that you will be fine. You will be happy. You will survive. You will learn to live and love again.
32-year "old" me.
P.C. Eternal guiding light/driver/photographer/surprise-giver/music-sharer/movie-and-popcorn-partner/soothsayer/conscience-keeper/cheerleader - @saipriyakumar.
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