Aku adalah sampah yang membusuk
di tengah kerumunan wajah asing.
Tempat lalat hinggap dan meresapi
sari buah yang dibuang orang berada.
Keberadaan bukan hal yang patut dipertanyakan.
Melainkan hal biasa yang seharusnya diabaikan.
Lalu tenggelam dan mati.
Di tengah bulan November,
pemulung baik hati, rela memungutku yang hampir mati; terngiang trauma akan jatuh kembali.
Ia membersihkan seluruh aku dengan kata
merawatku dengan cinta
hingga senyum mulai rekah
dan aku kembali percaya; cinta dan kasih merupakan jalan satu-satunya.
aku adalah orang yang paling berbahagia
sebab merasa dimiliki
Poem by @fahmiologi
Photo by @tsumizo
Thank you for nice poem and photo 😍 .
one day soon
your eyes will open
to the beauty
that has been here all along
will dazzle you
and you'll be left wondering
what else you've been missing.
3 1318 minutes ago
A Poem based on an initial spontaneous song I started singing one day in my room. The words just flowed out of my mouth and I knew I needed to record myself before I could write it down on paper. Unbeknownst of me, this song, it’s words, prophesied what was to come- a life creating songs for God with my future husband.
Let me explain a few of the lines below:
A fort: to build a strong home with a foundation firmly based on Christ.
Singing songs underneath the trees: creating, songs, poetry and art whilst living in a forest or nature-like setting (amongst trees, in nature). Bring your guitar: he is a singer and musician (mainly plays bass, acoustic and electric guitar). As the sun glistens brightly: God’s light shining on both of us.
24th November 2018
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• i’m going with the grace
that got me here
the grace that led me through
kept me through
and will see me through
what i am going through
Preparing efficiently from days,
Sometimes from internet,
&sometimes from jotted points told by papa,uncle or teacher.
After making speeches,
&editing for thousand times.
Adding sometimes proverbs from google,
&sometimes some stats relating topic.
Excitement was filled inside,
But nervous-nes was at its peak,
As the days were passing,
&ultimately arrival of that occasion was near.
Dual emotion was erupting,
First was,"how will I say before such a huge crowd?",
"Will I able to do so,&what if something went wrong?".
But at the same time,
Positive vibes telling,"everything will be alright, you will rock!",
"Allah will give you the prize of your hard-ship!".
Finally, the day arrives,
&the sleep a night before was disturbed& restive.
Since morning it seemed'butterfly in stomach',
&the excess secretion of adrenaline hormones.
Getting prepared for school&college was little extra,
But even no desire of anything persists.
As asked to choose the position of the speech,
I never wanted first for sure,
&also never the fourth for sure.
Requesting to rotate in 2nd& 3rd,
With a moto to enjoy the left debate just after my speech.
Already had practised the speech 25 times before papa,
But now it seems everything is fading up.
Unable to remember anything,
As nervousness has drifted away all leaving only it's existence behind.
As the debate begins,
Seeing first speaker sometimes telling confidently,
Gifted a little hope of doing better.
But if his/her shiver is visible,
The twitching hope,gets extinguished.
We stare at the paper with nervousness,
Like we never did before.
Trying to grasp all,
&sensing the fear of seperation from it i.e presently closest to heart.
As my turns arrives,
&name gets called off.
My shivering legs stretch up forcibly,
Reaching towards the dice in slow manner.
As seeing those faces giving blank or question looks,
Everything got wiped off.
Trying hard to speak&started with those trivial introductory line,
Those faces sitting there deliberately to tease you,
i.e your friends or known faces,
Does the remaining work.
Giving absurd nonsensical speech,
Running down to the seat saying thankyou.
(To be continued in comment)
18 961 month ago
Forget true, what is actually 'Love'? The question doesn't define that I know many things about love & just came here to brag, but instead, a question that confuses me many times. But atleast the thing which is crystal clear in my brain is that nowadays, love doesn't exists, though in the name of love, many things do.
I, usually don't want to write on Love & all such related topics, but after seeing a Pakistani drama, #mohabbattumsenafrathai & specially the role of @shahzadsheikh37 & @imranabbas.official it forced me to do so today. (I would really recommend you to watch it, though i'm not doing any official propaganda).
Now, what I observed there, after a little bit research also, Love always been a mixture of words like; care, trust, respect, sacrifice, support, loyalty... Its something that is really pious, which gives the beloved choices to make & freedom to enjoy. Its not something of achieving & caging him/her but infact let them go. Love is a blessing which grants you the power to see the world through a different look. It is other name of compromise, acceptance & protection, letting it grow & flourish.
Love is beyond the concept of something between two genders but can be with any element of this world as well other relations too. Its not at all something physical but actually a food for soul & game of spirits. Obviously, it snatches away the ability of analysing things & drag you to the stage where you becomes a puppet of your heart. Love actually is not just spending time together, but gives time to the beloved which is eternal & may never ends. Love is the respect for his/her which forbade from any exploitation.Love is feeling which enforce one to gift the whole universe,become devotee & admirer, selflessly doing best deeds to please him/her/it,granting the apical position & elevating the entity from a mere human to near a place of God.
Love is never helpless & weak & neither a word of begging before anyone but is something very powerful & optimistic.I just pray that may we all really experience the beauty of true love at some point of time in our lives in spite of promoting by walking on the road of lust & disgustence.
4 643 months ago
Poverty always remained a part of society from the day society formed.The classes were divided into two i.e Rich&Poor but gradually the discrimination grew vastly incomparable.
When economic globalization entered the world&made world a smaller place & at the same time executed things easier by encouraging free-trade,financial liberalisation,deregulation&privatization policy that at the end concentrated the wealth at the top&marginalise the poor.Economic globalisation increased inequality&poverty as globalisation has weakened the position of poor countries & exposed poor people to harmful competitions.Moreover,adding salt to the burn,corruption regimes also contributed to the poverty in a country.Corrupt government&corrupted system from the low level to huge bigger levels made whole country caverned,making huge incomparable discrimination between the two sections of society,making poor to poorer&rich to richer.In the situation, extreme bad weather conditions too has a hand partly.Extreme weather conditions like draught&flood causes great damage to the economic condition of the country,dragging poor to extreme poverty,&loosening all source of livelihood&total damage to the property they own.
According to me,to fight with this extreme demarcation of society,country should promote education.People because of it will able to understand the situation of surrounding&thus will able to eradicate the problem efficiently.It will also promote jobs&other ways of good earning,making the country developed&at the same time making poverty evitable in society.International aids,donor support,nutritious foods,agricultural inputs,basic infrastructure,safe drinking water&healthcare are some ways too to fight with it,effectively. Moreover,firstly,we need to treat poor like humans¬ like demographic.We need to stop the discriminations.
Though the class was made since the society formed,still there are eras of Chandra gupta1,Sher Shah,Akbar where though rich&poor both was present but the gap was not grave.Everyone was economic stable.Lastly,would like to request,if elite contributes a small%of their possession to poors,then poverty could be eradicate from the world.
5 483 months ago
Well!The topic is quite alarming & fear-provoking but at the end of the day an unchangeable absolute truth where we are slowly heading to,as well as thought-provoking.Human extinction is the hypothetical end of human species that may cause because of the environment or may be by the result of human action.Honestly analysing,we are really in the process of destruction in both the manner.& the irony is,we know it but are not likely to act accordingly for the betterment.
Since childhood,we are continuously grown up reading to save trees,stop pollution(i.e of air,water,noise,soil etc),grow plants,protect nature,but was sadly limited to brochure only.The real or practical life is totally contradictory,just bragging & addressing hefty dialogues but on the other hand sponsering huge amounts to the centres creating destruction to atmosphere,for the sake of money & power.Risking the life of all(present & future generations) heartlessly.
The adaptation of new hi-teck lifestyle,i.e usage of gadgets,electronic products etc causes immense CFC emulsion & radiation harming the natural surrounding.Usage of automobiles,creating pollution through other ways are pulverising the atmosphere which is evidently visible in the intensity of seasons,extremity of sunrays,sudden intensic change like flood drought etc at places,increasing level of water by melting of ice-burgs etc.
Above was related to nature,though still result of the human's act but now,I would like to point out the direct affect cause by human in human extinction.Some are,the scientific inventions such as atomic war,nuclear war,cloning,data war & now the inventions & discoveries of newly deadly viruses of which a pinch can damage the whole population of the area through deadly diseases & eventually kill them& that too daily new inventions regarding destruction continues which gets tested on either animals or those black people.
Sometimes,it makes me think that in this humanly war of knowledge discoveries & inventions the one who gets affected are those poor innocent animal,suffering pain because of this self-centered,lusty,wretched body named humans.
At last,if this continues,human will be extinct soon.
6 564 months ago
We all suffers from a parochial society, having a very keen & conservative point of view in every aspects & a worst habit of being so judgemental,ever since we have gained mental-maturity.
They are the ones having more interests in our private matters,much more than ours,continuously peeping & poking into.The no less than google having hoard of knowledge about us,varying from what we had in our lunch today to at what time in the evening/night we entered into home from work.From where we persuade or still persuading we career to what salary one gets & on whose influence. Even whom we met at a distance of 1km range,5 days ago & the biodata of guests arriving our home, s known by them.Litrally ending up forcing me to think that are all works & duties have evacuated from their lives that they are so free for peeping into other's lives?
They are such a creeps,making life hell & influencing major part of people to think 1000times before taking any actions in their life for betterment as the fear "samaj kya kahega?"persists in the brain.Decisions inviting happiness or simplifing life, that should be easily taken without any analysation either are never taken or delayed till the end because this ambigiois wretched society.
As writing this,one name that is continuously hammering in my mind is of one of my aunt stays nearby,very much vigilant & interested in with whom I converse & in what manner when my parents doesn't really cares.Typically commenting on every matter without realising about his son's actions(how many unknown calls,mysterious affairs,late-night activity in mobile). Having least concerns about his deeds.
Lastly,do we ever realise that just complaining about society's deeds is really justifiable?As we,citizens,form a society.It is just the reflection/portrayal of our keen thoughts.In spite of complaining,if we stop peeping into matters of others,taking interests in other's suffering tenure & gossiping bad about others & helping whole-heartedly without any expectations of return in the bad times like good neighbours,we would seriously one day or the other will achieve victory in removing the tag"log kya kahengey?".Let's correct ownself
2 414 months ago
In-equality & setting different paradigms for girls & boys have started from non other than in our families itself.Complaining & criticising just society for this can how be justified if we don't accept that society is conjugating families & so family is the biggest culprit.Protesting & speaking out loud in the favour of women empowerment & equality can how be justified or implemented if it is practised & reinforced in our daily life.
Prohibiting her from various subjects(IT, mechanical engineering..)constrain her from transferable jobs,late night shifts, office-jobs..,objecting herfrom excursions,night-outs,shifting out for career/jobs..which is easily permitted to him in the same house,he can date 10 girls at a time but she even can't talk to one,being there in same institution/tuition/coatching..,even more pamper to him than her because he'll stay forever & an ultimate support of your old-age.
From the decision of career to the decision of life-partner is done by the male member of society.Even the attire she carries,must be according to orthodox males,that doesn't provoke.
Being a single girl child sometimes turns to be a blessing,like me,but only if it's not a joint family where u have born & brought up.If that is the situation,you'll feel the loneliness of being alone in many occasions of life with a disgusting interference of other members & comparisons from other children of your age,imposing same obstructions problems & mentality.Ending up being in grave loss.
What is left between half or a century ago & now except fake concerns & responce through a lip-service sympathy but do not render any practical actions on empowerment of women & equality to all.As history defines the mentality towards her,as a property owned by father before marriage,husband after marriage & son in the old-age.
Binding up her opportunities to succeed just because she has vagina gifted by nature.Suddenly she ends up becoming "khandan ki izzat"/(proud of the family)& an object suffering keen observation & critical comments of society.
The inequality is present in all sections of society i.e from elite to poor,though the intensity & characteristic varies accordingly.
5 464 months ago
The two words seems to be vastly antithetical & divergent in connotation but believe me, down the lane at some point of time, has some stretch of association between.
Extreme Love (exceptionally today's perception) has a devine defination of selflessness & a feeling of sacrificing anything & everything for the wills of the beloved( a person, nation, religion, group or anything you love). But revolution's meaning is sudden but complete change violently.According to me, Revolution is just incomplete without the essence of Love. Wait! I'm not uttering non-sense, but will surely give valid reason for my opinion.
A couple fighting from their families, struggling hard because of reason may be diff. religion or caste etc. Sometimes gets badly injured but doesn't give-up & lastly achieves togetherness by hook or by crook, changing their world & future. People loving their country suffering from slavery, fought hard selflessly, lost lives, went jail, spilled out their blood but remained focused & didn't gave up, that resulted freedom to the state. The men(initiator of any religion)stood alone against the evils & barbarity of society philosophically. They were defamed, cruelty occurred against them when they shared the idea of their beloved religion, bear all hatred & gave their life in the propagation of the religion but remained concentrated to their belief & the religions flourished & are still followed courteously. People fighting for the rights of the group/caste/race, against the injustice occurring to them, revolts, sacrifices lives, looses property, faced tremendous trouble but kept on fighting without losing hope & staying united, finally achieve their demand/ goal. French Revolution etc had the motto of love for freedom in the hearts of the common-man. These are some of the examples where revolution though occurred but because of extreme love persisting there in the hearts of people for something or the other.
Yup, I accept love always doesn't need revolution but revolution always has one aspect of love in itself. If love doesn't exist then revolution will never ever take place.
18 464 months ago
A museum of books,
Inheriting publications of all categories.
Wonderland of exploration thoughts & discoveries,
Where knowledge collaborates with pin-drop silence.
In the city of rush & chaos,
Its a land protecting peace.
Inculcating urge for gulping all the books,
Presently situating in your favourite section.
Area granting exposure to all,
For swalloing your favourites & needs under a roof.
A boundary depicting complete sketch,
Of people busy in their own.
Staring just on their selection,flipping pages,
without caring of anyone present.
Fading in the world of fantasy,classics, history & knowledge.
In the crowd of unknown faces,
Some categorised into'desperate reader',
Focusing just on the book material.
Some as'staring masters',
Gazing the surrounding after every 2 min of read.
Some as'sleepy bumps',
& lately disturbed by guard roaming around.
Continuously uttering & piercing silence,
Breaking the norms of library.
The demarcation of experienced & freshers,
Is depicted by attire & belongings.
New ones carrying along whole lot,
Water-bottle,pouch,2-3 notepads,1-2 books..
Tumbling down to table like a clown,
Creating an act of humour.
Whereas,experienced stays simple,
By carrying just water-bottle,a note-pad & a pen.
Something more that demarcate them,
Is selection of book.
Experienced reader selects the one,
That solve their needs,
Without noticing its size cover & weight but wealth.
But new readers arriving for wandering purpose,
Categorised into different sections.
First one as'show-off creeps',
Choosing lumpy books for selfies,
& end up not reading a page.
Second one as'picture lovers',
Fliping pages & focusing just on photos.
Third as'lean lazy timepass reader',
Attacking on lean-figured books,
Opening a single page & continuously occupied in mobiles.
& last are'greedy lumps',
Picking up as many as can but endup in one page.
The most irritating act faced in library can be,
Those creeps entering hall with knock knock heel sound,
Piercing silence,disturbing readers,
& becoming centre of attraction.
& those cheaps,
Tearing pages from books & theafting it.
Me, still a little girl for family, just stepping into the age of adulthood. Still treated like a child from members of family, relatives, teachers as well as conductor of the bus, claiming as 'ladies bachcha' while climbing off the bus which honestly end up sometimes into complete embarrassment.
Amm! Yes, i'm not a writer & has not yet achieved that dignitarious position but surely I can include this as one of my desires yet to be attained. The word 'so-called' is been used that's why. I just arranges the words, whose meanings is known to me, into paragraphs leaving many grammatical mistakes behind. Though, its is also the unchanged truth that I tries hard to express my thoughts to the friendly yet judgemental audience there.
While firstly, its sometimes gets difficult to assess the topic to be elaborated but others, having enough in my pocket. Whatever be the case, my walking habit ultimately plays a vital role for imagining grasping & collecting the thoughts for writing. & how can I forget my most lovely brown welvet covered diary of 2016, still helping me to practice on it first & then secondly inscribing here(Instagram as well as my blog).
Honestly speaking, writing big paragraphs was not at all my cup of tea earlier but the @perpetuity_thoughts , @thescribbledstories, some of my batch-mate's fabulous writings inspired & became the reason for the start. Sometimes, the unseen backbone support was my most lovable friend #Google giving me the appropriate synonyms & information, which I know, is the support of many freshers too.
Through the means of these abrupt paragraphs, I really found opportunity to express my feelings, opinions & thoughts which without this platform would not be interpreted & I know this is the exact case of many. I am seriously a great supporter of the phrase"pen is mightier than the swords".
Lastly, taking the opportunity from this post, I request all my readers to comment (likes as well as dislikes & critics) for my improvement purpose. Thank you all for being there for me & please always stay back with your time, love, concerns & a reason to be the better writer. Hope one-day I'll inshallah be a good writer. Ameen.
3 355 months ago
A sincere desire to be an animal
Ohh! Come on, who says that,
An animal is declasse, paltry & subjacent,
A ferocious brutal beastly creature,
Or a fleshy uncivilized mass.
Just think once again,
They are the ones much more punctual & routined,
Without having a so called object named clock.
They are ones with no greed,
& just hunt according to their needs.
They are the ones with no envy,
& heart bleeds when their fellow are in misery.
The ones more civilised & cultured,
Despite of no schooling like human-child.
An emotional & caring lot,
With lots of respect & no self exploitation.
The one with compassion patience & responsibility,
Who lives life fullest & focuses on today.
They set examples for us & teaches lessons.
Lion by its ways teaches,
Work hard & stay humble.
Crocodiles advices trusting your instincts & act accordingly.
Strong & elegant yet graceful, an elephant exhibits.
Dolphins preach, talk less listen more.
Ants illustrate unity & save for a rainy-day.
Camels depicts how to survive in difficulties.
Donkeys teaches to stay calm in toughest situation & deal with it.
Horse lessons of stand tall & proud.
& Never announce your moves before making them,
Is an advice of tiger.
An adorable creature,
Which practices forgiveness.
An extremely simple being,
Which finds happiness in small.
The innocent mass,
Spreading unconditional love.
A pure & sinless soul,
Making world place to survive.
& a reason of mercy by God,
After all atrocities created by so called civilised beast.
From the very start they respected nature's law,
& in contradiction we find ways for its distortion.
I, hence believe,
Animals are much better than us,
& naming eachother 'animals' in mockery,
& using badger, donkey, bitch, dog, catty,fishy, monkey, hippopotamus, snake, owl, pig, bat & many more as slang,
Should be replaced with,
"Ohh look! He is such a vicious' human'.
It is a wonder we ever met,
all the things that seemed to
have been going wrong
now finally make sense.
I was never supposed to be
Sorry I took a bit longer,
I can be stubborn you see
and the clues from the planets
seemed too unreal.
But somewhere deep within,
there was no doubt I'd find you
I listened to the whispers of the universe
and all its tales were always
of you and me.
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117 77893 days ago
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