Time to show some appreciation to my boyfriend, best friend and partner in crime.
This Saturday will mark the 10 year anniversary since I lost my dad to a terrible car accident and this amazing man has done nothing but be supportive.
We are not a couple that posts a lot to social media as a couple but today I wanted to show how much I really appreciate him. We have had so many adventures together and will continue to travel the world one day at a time. He helps me to stay focused on my body and keeping fit.
We have had our ups and downs but so does everyone and every couple is different. We have fought for each other and are now the happiest we could ever be.
This year will be 3 years since we first met, since we was called ‘Will and Kate of a call centre’ and fell in love.
Thank you for always being my rock ❤️ #appreciationpost#bestfriend#boyfriend#patnerincrime#mynumberone#adventure#travel#onedayatatime#keepingfit#happiness#soulmate#willandkate
“No matter what I tell you, I figure it’ll be a long time before you ever see nothing but the tangle in all this mess.” ~ Jonathan
Odell, The Healing ✨
We go through times when we can only see the tangle in the mess. Where, try as we might to understand, none of it makes any sense. There’s all the they did this, then I did that, and the careless words, then this happened and I thought, but they thought something different, then there were words not said, but now I see, but maybe I don’t, and if only. So many if onlys...
Sometimes we’re given the liberty of time and space to figure it all out, but usually we have to move (or charge) forward with our lives. It can feel like someone gave us two puzzles called NOW and THEN, each with a thousand pieces that were cruelly mixed together. So we sort the pieces and try to keep up with NOW as we create the picture of THEN. ✨
Eventually, we file THEN in our memory box. We no longer see just the tangle, but also the reason. We may never completely understand, but we will have figured out enough to be wiser and stronger. ✨
I love adding lemon to my mop solution (2 capfuls of Thieves Cleaner in a gallon bucket of the hottest water I can get). I love adding lemon to my diffuser along with peppermint and lavender to support our respiratory systems as the flowers begin to bloom. I love Lemon in my ningxia in the morning! I love lemon in my homemade scone glaze. I love lemon to remove sticky residue off of surfaces. I love lemon in my homemade frosting or cakes. I love lemon in my water! I love that lemon boosts my spirit, gives me energy and helps my body to detox, as well as helps me keep the house clean and boosts my immune system at the same time!
How do you use lemon?
I am bloody pleased with myself for this. Two 30 minute runs in one week. I have an up and down relationship with running. Cross country was the only thing I even remotely enjoyed in PE, then I didn’t run until 2011 (when I was 34). That lasted until mid 2012. I did nothing then until 2015. I started it up again but by 2016 I suffered with Plantar fasciitis which I ignored. Big mistake, it got worse and worse until in March 2017 I was in agony. So I stopped everything. It took until July 2018 to recover. At that point I built up my walking again before starting, slowly, with running in September (c25k). So far it seems ok but I am very wary of any niggles and I won’t be ignoring them this time!
Happy Thursday!! Day 4 of my new 20 minute program and I’m loving it!! I had no doubts though! It’s all about mindset. Is it challenging? Heck, yeah! But if it wasn’t, I wouldn’t be pushing myself to new places! 💪🏼 But the best part is our group doing it all together! The interaction, the emotions, the support. It’s truly amazing. Hundreds of comments made on yesterday’s post. I love to see the way people show up for others. People that take time in their busy days to give a pat on the back or to tell someone they are not alone. It actually brings tears to my eyes. 💙
Most of these people are “strangers”. We all haven’t met each other. But the bond is strong!! We’ve got each other’s backs! Everyone is going through their own struggle, their own journey, their own transformation. Knowing that this group is there though? Seeing their sweet words lifting each other up? That’s inspiring. That’s what pushes us through when it gets tough. It brings me great joy! 💕
So, even though yesterday was a very emotional, tough day- today is a new day. Today I get to do Day 4! Today I get to choose to continue to push those negative voices out of my head. I look to the future. And it’s pretty damn bright! ☀️ Make it a great day, friends! And be kind. You never know what someone is going though! 😘
Do what fills your heart not what takes from it !! .
33 years of filling other hearts and never ever feeling worthy enough to fill mine landed me at rock bottom behind anything with a % content . If ya get me !!
Sobriety is just like learning how to walk again. Standing up and wobbling around , falling on hard ground , looking at everyone else able to do it, knowing that are able to , and getting back up everytime to try again . The bruises and scars from the journey are all there and noticeable especially In the most vulnerable moments. But the success of a new day every day is much brighter than any of the past . .
Falling in love with the person you are is first on the agenda. Then and only then can you have any ability to love others . Do you , for you with you !! On day , one hour , one minute at a time . Just keep moving ! .
Turn Fear of Missing Out into Joy of Bring Present! You CAN have fun without alcohol. I have found being present and aware during outings makes what I take out of them way more enjoyable.
I’d love to hear what you’ve noticed about your interactions not that you’re sober! Not sober yet? What do you want to improve about your social interactions? •
If you’re struggling reach out. This shit isn’t easy but we’re all in this together!
Alcohol free since 7-15-18
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During my 4:30 am workout this morning...this was not my friend 🤣🤣 So I was so proud of myself running on the treadmill then it happened I was starting the cool down when my phone fell and rolled of the treadmill. I pressed stop thinking it was stopping at my speed 🤣🤣 I turned fell and fell again off the treadmill 😳 But my phone is safe 🤪 Happy Birthday to me 🎉🎂🎊The lessons learned was the treadmill doesn’t stop on a dime. I got a laugh and got my workout in. 🔥
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The harder we work to accomplish the tasks set before us, the greater the satisfaction is when we attain victory. Choose to seize today as an opportunity to work hard, be thorough, and smile!! 🤗
Photo Credit: @danbiggerstaff
YOU ARE GIVEN WHAT YOU DON'T EVEN REALIZE YOU NEED
I had debated getting a dog for months. I had been waiting because I thought everything needed to be perfect first. A friend at work told me that I would figure it out, things don't have to be perfect. The first couple dogs I had looked at getting for whatever reason, didnt work out.
Then Oliver came along and I didn't hesitate. I was scared I wouldn't do a good job. I never had a dog in my life, I knew nothing about about dogs....I still don't know alot. But, I'm just figuring it out.
What I didn't realize is that Oliver would be there for me when I was feeling alone, that he would gladly cuddle with me whenever I needed, that he would be happy to see me everyday after work. I didn't realize how much I would need all that.
Throughout life you are given people, circumstances, situations, challenges...nothing is by chance. It's all part of your journey, and you will figure it out. .
And if something hasn't worked out the way you had hoped, there is a reason for that too. Just hold on because what you don't know you need will be exactly what you get, exactly when you need it 💜
All any of us can do is take life one day at a time. That's all we have friends. Live your best life today, free from yesterday's mistakes and the unknown tomorrow. Trust Him and receive His daily Grace, like manna. One day at a time. "God’s loyal love couldn’t have run out, his merciful love couldn’t have dried up.
They’re created new every morning. How great your faithfulness!" Lamentations 3:23-24
I've been wanting to do this, I NEVER thought I would find this mugshot again. Someone posted a 'How Hard Did Recovery Hit You?' photo and THIS my friends, is the side of my life that not alot of people have seen. I feel like a lot of my friends wonder why I'm sober and if I'm being dramatic... " She can drink just one, right? If she set rules with her drinking right?" Wrong. This is where it leads every time I grab the bottle again.
This mugshot was taken December 2017. Today on January 14, I stood in front of a judge to accept my consequences of that night. She saw my devotion to my sobriety and she took a HUGE chance on me. I'm so grateful for the opportunities I've been granted due to my sobriety. ~ Addiction Helpline 1-800-662-HELP (4357)~
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Day 34 Sober
The Hope I Found
35 days ago, I flew to Northern California, to a treatment center in Marin Country. I was still loaded, when I stumbled onto the plane. But, I never felt high enough ease the pain that I was trying so desperately to run from. Of course, I threw back several little bottles of vodka on the plane to "settle my nerves" until I landed in SFO airport.
After passing out upon arrival at the facility, I awoke the next day and walked up to the dining hall to get some breakfast.
I was weak. I felt lost. I was scared. Trembling slightly from the detox. I felt defective. But, most of all I felt unlovable.
I was approached by a young woman who was a resident there. She was in her early 20's. And, she introduced herself, and gave me warm hug. My body froze tensely when she embraced me. And then I melted, and allowed her to hug me. That was the first hug I received from another addict who was struggling to save her life. We sat down to breakfast, and I listened as she told me "her story".
I heard so many things in her story that were just like my own. For that brief moment. I didn't feel so alone. I didn't feel unlovable. And I felt like I had someone I shared a common bond with. We were both desperate to save our own lives.
For the 9 days I stayed in that detox facility, I received hugs from residents every single day. I heard multiple stories from 15 other struggling addicts, who were desperate to live again. I felt a sense of unity amongst us. And, I felt a little more hopeful every single day.
Upon leaving the detox facility, I came home and began attending a 7am AA meeting here in San Diego, every single morning. I received hugs, and heard more stories similar to my own.
So, when people ask me why I go to AA meetings every single day at the butt crack of dawn. I respond, "I start my mornings with genuine hugs. And I get to hear stories of hope" When you guys send me comments & messages telling me your stories, I feel hope.
So, if you’re feeling hopeless & unloveable..I understand.
Just know, we trudge this road to healing together. #DaddyIsBack#soberliving#onedayatatime#gaydaddy#gaystagram#instagay#nickcapra#soberissexy
I didn't realize until recently how much I was still holding onto this whole cancerland. Waking up each morning and seeing the wigs sitting on top of my dresser that I bought before I started chemo two years ago. The leftover medications that I've hung onto just in case I ever have to go through this again. The underwire bras that I'm never going to feel comfortable wearing again post mastectomy. Each one a ghost of cancer's past. Instead of planning for a future of what is, I was planning for a future of what ifs. This has been my reality post cancer. Struggling with the fear of the unknown, the what ifs, the worry and wonder with every ache and pain if the cancer has returned. I thought I had a handle on it, I thought I had the tools I needed, but I realized that the fear of recurrence has manifested itself in other ways and I've still got some skeletons in the closet to let go of.