My life without him? I couldn’t ever imagine. I hope my son follows his dreams, never gives up on what he wants for himself, and always polite to whomever he meets. I wanna raise him with manners, Texas charm, and the values that GOD, family, and education always come first. Creating a legacy ✨🌎💛 #blessed (📷Photo cred: Auntie B) @brittneyarena
Jesus Christ. I. still. love. you.
it's so weird to me how I can be, after all that's happened and the shit ton of hurt I had to do to fix myself. No matter what boy I meet, no matter what I do with them, you're always in my head. Not a day has gone by where I don't think about you. It's crazy what affect you have on me still. That I still get nervous around you and babble, or I still have a tendency to spam you a little (I generally wont for other people), or the sound of your voice and laugh is still one of my favorite things. I don't know Jay... life is so easy with you in it. Of course I still will say my little safetyguard, but I can talk to you about anything, things I haven't even told my best friend before. What makes me mad is how you can make me happy and you aren't even trying. I think no matter how much time has passed by, I will always have a weak spot for you, and that terrifies the hell out of me. Because you're ultimately the on holding the decision in your hand. You're the one that has to tell me to leave and move on, or give me the hope the dumbass part of my head hoped for.
I remember this one time two summers ago, you told me about a dream you had. You said that you dreamed that you asked for a second chance and at first it was hard but then everything that we talked about happened. I wish I replied to that. I wish I could've said "I wish that happened in real life," but it felt too far gone. But like I said, nothing is going to be held back.
I can't choose. Because if I stay and you will never want something more, I end up hurting myself and I don't need more of that. But the good thing is I get to talk to you - but it'll never be like before. of course I would want to be closer and talk more. but to what point? of course I'll be here if you ever need me. but will you do the same? idfk you decide.
The point is you want to be just friends. I wish I could be just friends, talking with you makes my day so much better. Literally I was shopping with my mom the other day and she straight up asked me why I'm extra happy. I didn't know how to tell her it was you. (CONTINUED IN COMMENTS)