• It’s hard seeing everyone around me happy and having strong best friend relationships. Yes, I have a boyfriend but he has and amazing friend group that I wish I had. I don’t have anyone there for me when I need it. I’m drowning. I can’t find my way out and it sucks being this way. I wish I could end it all. But I can’t. If I were to do it no body would care or miss me if i were to leave. My boyfriend will get over me and move on the next. My family will just clean out my room and make it into something new. My friends would forget about me in a week. I’m tired of living like this. I want the pain to go away but it never will. So I sit and suffer and rip my arms and leg apart till one day I cut too deep and bleed into nothing. Till I see nothing but red.• #depressedquotes#cuttingmyselff#dying#depression#justletmedie#iminpain#nocaresaboutme#justdiealready
The rain came back to Vancouver today 😿
With the sun no where in sight in can be easy to slip into bad moods/ or feelings of depression, using these 3 tricks will help turn your rainy ☔️days sunny☀️
1. Invest in a “SAD” (seasonal affective disorder) lamp, light therapy💡 can help ease symptoms and increase energy levels
2. Burn candles🕯, it’s easy to feel like your trapped inside, but finding ways to make your home more cozy (try getting some cozy blankets) candles have a way of making a bleak day feel like cozy nesting🥰
3. Find a cozy coffee shop and plan your next sunny day adventure! A warm cup of anything🍵☕️ is heaven on a cold day, and having something to look forward to is just that much better 🙌🏽☺️
As our lives have become more hectic, we are not always able to step out into nature as freely as we would like. Nature as we know grounds us, connects us to the earth, keeps us in the here and now...
Carry this little Healing stone with you at all times, and when you feel anxious, or stressed simply just by holding this tiny stone you will feel and be aware that you are in the present, and become immediately grounded.
Spiritual grounding means being in touch with nature. Firmly planted on the ground and in tune with our bodies. The word means just as it says - to be connected with the ground, to establish a strong and powerful energy connection with the earth.
By grounding yourself, you connect with nature, in times of stress, anxiety, or sadness, use this Healing stone, to ground yourself.
Being grounded is an essential skill for empaths, and highly sensitive people who pick up on emotions from the people and environment around them. It means that you're present in your body and connected with the earth, allowing you to feel centred and balanced no matter what's going on around you.
If you are not grounded you're like a flimsy leaf being blown by the wind: very vulnerable and thrown off balance easily. But when you are well grounded, you are like a big tall oak tree, strong, solid. If something happens around you, it doesn't influence you as much, your life becomes more enriched, and you feel more at peace and balanced in your daily life.
It’s our personal responsibility to deal with our own emotions and not to project it on the outside people and circumstances. I know very well it’s not always easy to do that because our way of thinking and feeling seems so real and justified to us. When we feel bad the last place we wanna look is within ourselves and our shortcomings and we wanna blame others. But you can spend a lifetime in that process of projecting and keep wondering why Certain things keep happening to us. Like I said, the only way is to look within, have the courage and the honesty to see certain ways and patterns we have and then embark on the journey of transformation. Then you will find peace and love. #love#relationshipgoals#health#depression#transformation#coaching#lifecoaching#cyprus
Food for thought! 🌱CBD and it's potential 🌱
Supports Brain Health 💪
(Balances Cognitive Response in the brain)
(Reduces stress without psychoactive effects)
(Supports a healthy inflammatory response)
Peace of Mind 😇
(Eases discomfort naturally)
Just a quick update! 🌷
First, I want to thank two of my amazing pen pals: @love.through.letters and @discovering.eli for the super lovely letters they sent me! In case they are for my birthday, I haven't opened them yet, but the envelopes are amazing as always! (And Mika, I love mandala so much, the envelope is so cool!). These were the first letters in a while... I don't know why I haven't received anything in ages, also if my friends told me they sent me letters a while ago. Italian post services are shit! 😅 Anyway, that made my day a lot brighter. I love receiving letters! ❤️
After that, I want to say a HUGE THANK YOU to everyone who helped me yesterday to check my English presentation for today's exam. In the presentation part of the exam I took 30/30! 😍 Thank you all for the kindness. I received A LOT of messages and I'm going to reply to everyone now. This is what I love about the recovery community: supporting and helping each others. You guys are really amazing! 🌸
I wish you all the best, keep fighting and don't give up! 💪
1 45 minutes ago
Sometimes people don’t realize that chronic illness can strike anyone, even a healthy looking 26 year old like myself 💁🏻♀️ it’s hard to understand, it’s hard to deal with the meds 💊 the doctors visits, the emergency room trips, the anxiety, the flare ups, & everything else that comes with chronic illness. I know not everyone understands invisible illnesses, & that’s why it’s become my mission to spread awareness 👊🏼
1 57 minutes ago
EMDR is proven to help move memories that have been incorrectly stored during times of high distress. Memories of times we have found traumatic in the past become tangled and ‘caught up’ with others so it becomes impossible to extract one without others interfering. Much like trying to remove a phone charger from a messy drawer filled with other cables. It impacts on how we process events happening now and leads to re-experiencing, sometimes of the memories themselves or of the physical sensations and emotions we experienced at the time. This makes the memory seem very current and the emotion very ‘live’ each and every time it is brought up. Strong emotions of anger, guilt, shame, sadness and many others are experienced as intensely as at the time of the trauma.
EMDR helps to ‘tidy’ the drawer so each memory is stored correctly, with a sense of it being in the past and with the context of all our other knowledge and understanding connected to it. It no longer carries the same ‘charge’ and we are able to look at it and put it away without being confronted by the physical sensations at unwanted times. This in turn can allow us to make changes in our current lives as we can move on from what happened.
1 37 minutes ago
Well day 2 of week 2 didn’t start off as I had hoped...
I was super tired this am so I decided not to get up for my 5am wake up call. I feel sluggish, depressed and unmotivated today. I have let bad habits and negative thoughts start creeping back in as I see my weight going back up again...(falling asleep on the couch at night, eating sweets at night, picking off the kids’ plates).🙈 Yes, I’m a health & fitness coach, but yes I falter...I’m not perfect.😬
I wasn’t perfect over the weekend but I started off making some pretty huge sacrifices at social engagements with little or no alcohol at all 🍷(huge win for me)!!! And then I started slipping a bit. Not being prepared at my daughter’s soccer tournament out of town led to some poor choices and things started to snowball BUT, I can still turn my day around! I got my “Faster” workout done finally and I’m proud to see my progress compared to last week! I’m listening to some personal development and planning out my week so I don’t falter again! I have a cruise coming up and I’ve got to have 👙👙👙 on my mind!!💪🏼
Tiny white size 7 shoes
A little girl covered covered and bruised
The cuts go deep some you can’t even see
Tiny white size 7 shoes
abused and broken her innocence too
Long blonde hair and big blue eyes so much anger so much pain to hide
So much suffering confusion and guilt not understanding why no one will help
Long lanky legs but can’t run far enough
No matter which direction she is tainted and stuck
Poor little girl always down on her luck
Tiny white size 7 shoes the little girl continues to bruise
Big beautiful blue eyes fade colour it seems
When she begs for help she can’t even scream
It’s as if tape has been placed over her tiny face she dies inside becomes filled with hate
Big blue eyes continue to change her big eyes they continue to fade
She finally starts to cry and cry she breaks down until her eyes are dry
Now she’s hiding someone’s secrets deep, deep inside
Afraid and alone as everyone abandoned her at “home” she’s just a child but but unwillingly has grown
The cuts go deep deeper than eyes can see
They cover her body but no one believes “If can’t see, the child’s a liar! Just let it be..” Tiny white size 7 shoes I must hide you so you don’t fully lose
I’ll place you high up on the the shelf where no one can see you
And know one can tell
You will come back empty but you will be free a different human I hope they are ready to see
tiny white size 7 shoes a little girl covered and bruised the little soul has been hidden away returned a soldier, ready that day.
1 32 days ago
I close my eyes and all I see is the way you mistreated me
Miss guided, used and mentally abused me
Now my heart lays broken on the floor
It’s shattered worse than it was before
It’s your little games you play
It my mental state that’s confused in me
Miss guided, with your lies why did you do this to me?
How could you not choose me?
Why did you choose she?
Instead of choosing “we”
Now you’ve gone and burnt everything that we could be because
You always act so selfishly
Causing anarchy of our lives you see
Everyone told me you would do me wrong
Everyone told me to run
But I stood by your side amongst your lies you little devil why did you come out from hiding
You should have stayed below instead of stealing my inner child’s glo
Ghosting is insulting to the receiver. It’s as if you weren’t even worth one properly let go. But, why do people think it’s ok to ghost?
This is a result of fear of conflict when having to confront others. Ghosting is a convenient way to avoid this entirely. However, running away from someone does not necessarily cause them to stop chasing you.
The guilt from taking such a spineless way out of a relationship can have a long-lasting negative effect on the person who ghost. This behaviour also further strengthen the distress or anxiety that confrontation may cause.
32 15203 hours ago
Well you live so long in the pain, it becomes comforting to you. Sometimes what feels good isn’t always right.
The second edition of my book "Soft Thorns" is now available at the link in bio ♥