Long post + vent (tw)
What the fuck even is my dumb fucking life???
I wish I was a fucking pebble unaware of the trials and tribulations of being human.
I dont even know what or who I am, just a dumb tired bitch who wants to *scream*
Like am I actually mentally ill and depressed from my severe bullying in middle school or am I just faking it? Who fucking knows! Certainly not my fucking parents who dont ~believe~ in mental illnesses.
And dont even get me started on my gender and sexuality- I've been comfortable id-ing as a nb butch lesbian for a while now but now I'm feeling like maybe im actually might just be a trans guy or maybe I'm just faking it all- it sucks living in a homophobic country I cant even bloody talk about this shit to anybody to get this shit sorted so im just sittin on my ass and internally screaming.
I dont even have to motivation to draw shit rn.
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So if you want to escape torment to the best of your ability, be boring! Lol. Otherwise, you may find you have little helper-elves trying to assist you to suicide. Little devils. If you find yourself a victim of an abusive system, it’s not your fault. Society is setup to support these “systems” of abuse, which is something many on the outside don’t realize: it’s never just the abuser, but the abuser and their cast of enablers that victims are up against. Abuse is perpetuated in “systems” where everyone involved with the abuser will invalidate the victim’s pain and unjust. At times they may join in doing the #psychological warfare. Anything to keep the victim weak. These are ppl battling evil but either have herd mentality or are dissonant. They rationalize and then excuse. Most acting out evil don’t recognize themselves. If you’re trying to move on but are feeling entrapped, seeking in a higher power or the #universe, and having #trust it‘ll lead you safely out, can have you surprised when doors begin to open. Feel good in knowing you’ve accomplished some deep inner #healing if you’ve stopped caring what anyone in the “system” thinks or wants because you are no longer willing to sacrifice yourself. The hardest part is after you walk away, and the effects of #trauma and living in ‘flight or fight’ for so long has your body weakened, your cognition impaired, perhaps you’ve acquired #autoimmune problems by now. You may experience being in a state of “shell shock”. Often victims come to realize at this point too, that every single relationship in their life involves a #toxic individual who also invalidates their needs, and so they end up in a period of entire loneliness where they’re too #tired, #confused, and #untrusting to allow anyone new close. And without the proper tools to carry us through, loneliness will be our downfall that leads us right back into the “system”, either of the past or some new sociopath comes along who seeks the #abused. Be prepared, have a plan: a #spiritual program or #abuserecovery group. There’s not enough resources tbh, but until resiliency is gained, you’ll be walking on a tight rope. #abuseawareness
I was so confused, what did I do to be in jail? I was so stressed out hearing everyone being so loud.. since I can’t see my hearing is heightened and it was really bad... Those angels called volunteers saw me and took a video of me posting it and reposting it, until the hooman came for me. I was so confusing, but I did lick its hand when it tried to pet me.
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Lately, I've been thinking I want you to be prettier , I want you to be stronger, I want you to be calmer, I want you to be everything better than you were but most of all I want you to be happier with who you're, my dear self!❤️ #mondaymood#notetoself