Yesterday I started 80 day obsession.
It wasn’t quite the monumental, inspirational day I was hoping for...
It was hard. Everything about it was hard. Not much about it went right, and that was hard for me to deal with. I took my weight and measurements first thing in the morning (definitely not a good way to start the day). Also some before pictures, because even though I HATE them, I know I’ll thank myself when I can compare them to my after.
But honestly, it sucked to SEE just how far I had let myself go. I had made so much progress.. mentally and physically, and I really feel like I’m starting from ground zero now. I hate that my physical appearance is tied so heavily to my emotional stability. I felt like absolute garbage yesterday. I felt massive and gross and unworthy. I cried, numerous times. I took my anger and frustration out on everyone around me. I let it affect my work. I let it affect my relationships. I let it affect me.
But if I’ve learned one thing from this journey, it’s that nothing is impossible. I know fully well that I have crushed this program once, and I am fully prepared to do it all over again! I may not be where I want to be, but I will get there. Instead of using a shitty first day as an excuse to be sad or give up - I’m taking it as a challenge. I’m going to see just how far I can push myself, just how strong I can be, and just how far I can go 💕
When u perrrfect the puppy dog eyes and get everything u want💯
1 234 minutes ago
When I’m in trouble I hold my mom’s hand like this and then she’s not mad anymore....works like a charm🤷🏼♀️
1 336 minutes ago
Happy tri Tuesday from Guessy!!!l so happy with how good she looks after weaning off pups! I have been often asked lately if our blue eyed tris actually keep their blue eyes! The answer is yes! By the time the pup is 6 weeks old ( especially on black tris/ blue Merle’s) you will know if their eyes are staying blue! The reds can be trickier but their are signs!
1 041 minutes ago
Life gets rough when Garb won’t play
1 01 hour ago
This is my sister, Garbage, she’s chill. Hits me in the face a lot when I chase her tail, but we cool
1 01 hour ago
Just a lil ball of fluff and razor teeth😆 iss fine when ur cute
1 11 hour ago
Meeting my grandma for the first time....she cried🥰