A couple days passed and I was so tired. Mainly due to the fact I haven't been able to sleep because of what me a Haz almost did. Even though we haven't done anything since, (Tom hasn't left us alone) I can't stop feeling guilty. Tom did say that he loved me and I told him I liked him too so how is this fair to him? I know how hard it is to live when someone you love breaks your heart and now I'm no better than Oli, atually I'm worse! At least Oli didn't try and hide his affections for other girls but I'm trying to act like nothing has happened. Ugh! I don't know what to dooooooooo!
"LIV?" Tom shouted from the front door.
"IM JUST POPPING OUT TO THE SHOPS, DO YOU NEED ANYTHING?"
"UM, NO THANK YOU!"
I heard the front door shut and if on cue, Haz poked his head round my bedroom door.
"Hey love, can I come in?"
"What you watching?"
"Ooh great. We can Netflix and chill...if you know what I mean." He said winking. I didn't reply, unsure of what to say. Do I listen to my heart? Or my head?
Haz's hand started creeping around my waist and up to my chest, with his other one, he locked fingers with mine and gently pushed me down flat on the bed. "Now we can finish what we started." He whispered softly. He started to undress himself and me but I felt uncomfortable. "Haz sto---" I was interupted by another kiss, more hand grasping. His head moved lower down my stomach and his hands stroked my upper thighs. I have to stop him otherwise I'll regret it. My leggings were suddenly were pulled down and..."Stop." I said firmly.
He looked up at me. "What? Stop?"
"Yes Harrison, stop. I can't do this. Not to Tom."
He looked irritated.
"So you're preventing this from happening just because of Tom even though he will treat you like sh*t and won't love you like I do."
"yes." I said meekly.
"Fine." He put his clothes back on. "Just don't come running to me when he breaks your heart." With that, he stormed out.
All I ever do is cry and that is precisely what I did until Tom came home.
(Little short one🤗)